What & where?

I don’t know what I’m doing or where I’m at these days. 

I change my mind very quickly & never know which direction or choice to make. It’s scary, life is scary. You can make one decision & it can affect the rest of your life. 

This adulting life is bloody terrifying but I like to think deep down that we’re thinking & feeling the same. Some obviously deal with it or hide it better than others whereas some just completely lose it & turn into bad eggs. 

I’m not really sure what I’m trying to say. I guess, you’re not alone. Keep going, keep trying. It will be ok in the end, and if it’s not ok, then its not the end. 


Own worst enemy

Sometimes the bravest thing to do is be yourself. 

I find this hard. Even though I have a great, support network – I just feel I’m not as good as others. 

Low self esteem for ya, plus I’m naturally a negative thinker. I’m very good at focusing on the bad. 

I need to focus on the good. Because life is good, I need to relax my mind and breathe. Breathe & just chill. Why is it so hard? 

Any tips on relaxing, I’m listening. 

Day off

Friday the 13th. Unlucky for some….

Not me. Well not this time anyway!

Today I was not at work. I took a day off. Last day off was Christmas and it has been brilliant.

I woke up this morning at half 8 as I didn’t want to waste the day.

Had some cuddles with my 9 month old step niece as she, her mum, my brother, mum & dad are off on a weekend away together. I passed on this due to wanting some time to myself – good decision

Then I went to my boyfriend’s house to head to the gym together which was ok. I have 3 goals at the mo, main one being to make my back stronger and my god, it’s so painful to do.

The shower afterwards made it worth it. Nothing better than a hot shower after smelling all sweaty and dirty.

My boyfriend took me for a picnic near the river which was so lovely. There were baby goslings 😍😍

The sun was shining, the park was beautiful and we were just chatting away.


Overall a brilliant day, I really needed some time to just relax and not think about anything. Would highly recommend it every so often.