lifelessons

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What & where?

Published October 17, 2017 by katee124

I don’t know what I’m doing or where I’m at these days. 

I change my mind very quickly & never know which direction or choice to make. It’s scary, life is scary. You can make one decision & it can affect the rest of your life. 

This adulting life is bloody terrifying but I like to think deep down that we’re thinking & feeling the same. Some obviously deal with it or hide it better than others whereas some just completely lose it & turn into bad eggs. 

I’m not really sure what I’m trying to say. I guess, you’re not alone. Keep going, keep trying. It will be ok in the end, and if it’s not ok, then its not the end. 

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Own worst enemy

Published September 10, 2017 by katee124

Sometimes the bravest thing to do is be yourself. 

I find this hard. Even though I have a great, support network – I just feel I’m not as good as others. 

Low self esteem for ya, plus I’m naturally a negative thinker. I’m very good at focusing on the bad. 

I need to focus on the good. Because life is good, I need to relax my mind and breathe. Breathe & just chill. Why is it so hard? 

Any tips on relaxing, I’m listening. 

Trust yourself

Published May 24, 2017 by katee124

Long time no see. 

Its important to be able to trust yourself as at the end of the day, you are all you have. 

Just today alone I’ve had a few experiences where I’ve been made to feel bad about just acting as myself or feeling a certain way or even voting for a certain party in a certain election. 

My message here is, you do you. No matter what. It’s alot easier to be you than pretend other wise. 

Everyone is different, sure but we’re all our own people with our own thoughts, feelings and decisions. 

The amount of abuse I’ve seen lately about people voting for parties in this election is horrendous. 

The important thing is to vote. Vote for who you believe in or their policies. Everyone is in a different situation hence the different parties. 

Please stop the hate. Encourage to vote. Encourage to educate unbiased information. The BBC website is perfect for this. 

There’s too much hate these days, let in the light. 

Bad day

Published February 1, 2017 by katee124

Today has been a pretty bad day for me.

Started off this morning fine, thinking “halfway through the week, woohoo”

Got to work and it just wasn’t playing ball.

This nasty girl I sit near was on form, she was arguing with me every time I opened my mouth. I could of said the world was shaped like a ball and she would of argued it was a square. 

She’s so aggressive & intimidating, it makes me feel uncomfortable. It makes me angry that certain people just let her get away with it. 

Then…. My manager took me aside and said she was disappointed in me and thinks I need to mature which she has said before but unfortunately it doesn’t happen overnight.

Kick a girl whilst she’s down eh? 

I guess I was just feeling emotional today. My lenses were playing up but more importantly, I feel isolated at work. I feel like I can’t talk or trust anyone without it backfiring. 

Hey ho. just a bad day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 

I came home, watched me before you and had a good cry which always helps 🙂 

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Published October 21, 2016 by katee124

Hi there, its been awhile since I wrote a post. 

Been busy with holidays and work. 

Anyway…. 

Back at work, I’m just looking around and I like to think I get on with the majority of people. 

I’m quite shy deep down so I try and practice my people skills when I can but some people I just can’t click with. 

One of those people unfortunately is my manager. We just don’t get eachother at all. He’s Mr army who doesn’t do feelings or anything personal. He’s all business. Whereas I’m full of feelings and being personal. I’m also slightly high maintenance and like to be told I’m doing a good job which he doesn’t do. 

I don’t think I’m that hard work. I just like reassurance that I’m doing ok. But with him, no news is good news. 

It’s taken about 3 years but I think or hope I’ve finally accepted that not everyone is going to like you and there’s nothing you can do about it. 

Just concentrate on those you love and those who love you back. 

Long weekend

Published August 22, 2016 by katee124


I went away this weekend with some friends. 

The idea of it terrified me. The thought of being on show all weekend and having nowhere to hide. 

I had no boyfriend to cuddle up to either as he’s away for a few weeks. 

He told me two things. Be brave and be positive. So that’s what I did. 

Unlike some, one of the humans I got a lift with and was sharing a tent with was a miserable moo all weekend. So I tried to keep away . 

It’s amazing what a few drinks can do to make you feel good. 

It was a nice enough weekend. Was good for me to be social without hiding behind my boyfriend. My friends are my friends.

I had nothing to worry about really. My life story eh? 

One regret – getting a bit too drunk one night. I hit my peak and was loving life. 

Went over peak and ended up in tears. I was in tears cos I missed my boy. I must like him or something. 

I learnt that its ok to be a bit scared sometimes. As long as you’re brave and get through it positively.

I also learnt that even the happiest of people need a few off days. 

Who’s real?

Published April 29, 2016 by katee124

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Back to one of my previous posts about who are your real friends? Still having a similar problem at work. I think maybe I’m too nice and think the best of people.

A girl who started a few months ago who started off being really nice, the sort of person who was going to become a quick close friend has recently started acting a bit off.

I have no idea why but she’s not coming to any social gatherings, not even coming to the pub on a Friday lunchtime which I know she loves doing. She’s isolating herself and chatting to everyone in our room except me. When I join in, she goes quiet.

A part of me thinks it is due to becoming friends with the new boy who’s in our team. But he’s friends with her too. I don’t really get it.

Without bragging I don’t think she has the best of lives. Her boyfriend doesn’t sound like a nice person. She’s in a lot of debt and isn’t overly confident in her job. But I still like her and I want to be her friend. But she doesn’t really seem that bothered. She just seems off and distant.

I’ve learnt this year that work friends are temporary most of the time so I guess I won’t be chasing for it and just leave it with her. So at least I’ve learnt something but still need to work on being wary and not so friendly with new people.

Baby steps 🙂