I recently had an annual review at work and was told I need to work on my maturity for work and personal
What does that mean?
Well, for personal to me it means growing up and pushing myself out of my comfort zone as much as I hate it because deep down, its good for you and you learn from it and become better.
Becoming less shy and timid and just going for it and to stop apologising for being me because I’m great and the world should know about it.
Work maturity, to me means behaving professionally and making the best of situations. Analysing them and removing myself if bad and managing others.
I need to change how I think and become more business oriented. Challenge accepted.
Now lets go out and own this weekend 🙂
Not having a very good day today.
I don’t feel myself. I feel sad. I feel weak. I feel tired.
There’s nothing to be sad about. There’s nothing wrong. So why do I feel so rubbish?
My mind is playing tricks on me again. Maybe it’s related to my period. Maybe it’s related to my anxiety. I don’t know.
I’m just trying to keep going. Trying to see if anyone feels like me.
Everyone seems fine as per.
I don’t like reading or watching the news at the moment. It’s just a very scary, dark place at the moment.
We need love, show hope and kindness. Maybe it will get easier time.
Sorry for the rambling.
I needed this photo today.
Work has been tough lately. I’m taking on these new responsibilities and finding it difficult. I’m dealing with queries I have no idea how to do and am feeling all this pressure to impress and please. My head feels very heavy right now like I have an anchor attached to it.
Sometimes I just need a timeout.
Which is actually what I’m doing now. I’m at work, hiding in a meeting room and writing a blog post as this is what I have my blog for. To help empty my mental messy mind and deal with life.
I have about 4 hours left. I can do it.
It’s raining, I like the rain. Something about it seems very calming to me. It’s a shame I don’t sit near a window anymore but I can hear it.
I will do some exercise when I get home as that’s a great way to feel better about yourself as you release some happy endorphins. I’m also listening to some band called 5 Seconds of Summer who I’m seeing live tomorrow night. Hope they will be good. I love a boyband.
I can do this. I can hold on for another 4 hours and not have a breakdown. I think.
Just breathe, don’t react. It’s a bad day, not a bad life. I’m ok. I’ve got this 🙂