I’ve been good lately. Too good. Until yesterday.
Had a bit of a moment in the bath. Suddenly released what I’ve become so good at blocking in my mind.
I felt extremely stressed, overwhelmed and exhausted.
It’s not easy to get out of so here’s a list I wrote of things to be grateful about.
– flowers, they’re so pretty and yes they die but then you can more prettiness
– cats, so fluffy and purry and cute
– love, its lovely when someone loves you and you love then. Relationships, friendships, family
– makeup, nothing a bit of lipstick can’t do to make you own the day
– rivers, with all their animals and plants and boats
– food, creme eggs chicken nuggets Turkey dinosaurs sausages smoky bacon crisps
– smiles 🙂
That will do for now.
I recently had an annual review at work and was told I need to work on my maturity for work and personal
What does that mean?
Well, for personal to me it means growing up and pushing myself out of my comfort zone as much as I hate it because deep down, its good for you and you learn from it and become better.
Becoming less shy and timid and just going for it and to stop apologising for being me because I’m great and the world should know about it.
Work maturity, to me means behaving professionally and making the best of situations. Analysing them and removing myself if bad and managing others.
I need to change how I think and become more business oriented. Challenge accepted.
Now lets go out and own this weekend 🙂
Tuesday was fun. I was a very grumpy lady all day and I have no idea why.
I keep blaming work and how I hate my job and the people I’m surrounded by all day.
But really, I think it’s me.
I just don’t feel happy in my head and its starting to become a problem. I use to think I was a happy person but not at all recently.
Is something wrong? Who knows.
I’m just trying my best to get through the day and that’s all anyone can do. Their best.
I cheered myself up by seeing an old friend and going to the cinema. We saw a film called the shallows which has the gorgeous Blake Lively in.
Massive girl crush although my highlight of the film was Steven the seagull. What a babe.
Its important to have things to look forward to.
I wrote this on the journey back from Alton Towers on my phone due to no signal.
I was trying to keep calm about being stuck in the car for so many hours and not being listened to.
I recently went away for a few days with my boyfriend and some friends.
I’ve learnt a lot.
One of them is that I’m not very tolerant of people and am extremely lucky to have a brilliant boyfriend who puts up with me.
We went to Alton Towers and we were just about to go on the Smiler which I was having massive doubts about.
I know I was being silly. All rides are dangerous and a potential risk but the reputation of this ride and the recent accident with it was all I could think about.
I didn’t want to lose a leg or have something horrific happen.
It didn’t help that it looks fairly creepy too but basically I had a bit of an anxiety attack and just couldn’t go on it.
Luckily, my boyfriend sensed almost straight away and knew I wasn’t happy. So he grabbed my hand and took me away from the ride 🙂
My friends called me a coward but I didn’t care. I wasn’t happy so I didn’t do it.
I don’t regret it at all. Even if it meant missing out on a supposed good ride.
Always listen to your instincts.
Friday the 13th. Unlucky for some….
Not me. Well not this time anyway!
Today I was not at work. I took a day off. Last day off was Christmas and it has been brilliant.
I woke up this morning at half 8 as I didn’t want to waste the day.
Had some cuddles with my 9 month old step niece as she, her mum, my brother, mum & dad are off on a weekend away together. I passed on this due to wanting some time to myself – good decision
Then I went to my boyfriend’s house to head to the gym together which was ok. I have 3 goals at the mo, main one being to make my back stronger and my god, it’s so painful to do.
The shower afterwards made it worth it. Nothing better than a hot shower after smelling all sweaty and dirty.
My boyfriend took me for a picnic near the river which was so lovely. There were baby goslings 😍😍
The sun was shining, the park was beautiful and we were just chatting away.
Overall a brilliant day, I really needed some time to just relax and not think about anything. Would highly recommend it every so often.
I love Peter Pan. Hence the photo above. It’s been my favourite film since I was a little girl. It just makes me really happy. I’ll be watching it a bit later to cheer myself up as I’ve had a bit of a shitty day.
The lady who’s job I’m taking over in the next month or so was off ill today so I had to deal with all this new stuff on my own which I still don’t really know how to do. It was not fun. The worst part was that the people I asked for help who are suppose to be my colleagues were just really unhelpful. Acting as if I should know it by now but I’ve only been training for 3 weeks and haven’t been taught every bit of the job yet. Give us a break.
Even two of my so called closer colleagues made the situation worse by not listening to my side of things and making my job harder. Really have had enough of some of these people. But the people I do like, I really like.
As it says at the top, “think a happy little thought”….
I had a nice manicure today at a different place on my lunch break. Was only £12 which is always good, love a bargain! Thought the lady did a pretty good job too. I know where to go if I ever fancy a little treat at work!
Been helping out another colleague today too who seems to actually appreciate it which is great. I like helping people but it sucks when they don’t appreciate it, especially if I’m going out of my way and doing someone’s job for them.
Back to happy little thoughts…
Going to watch Peter Pan in bed tonight, hoping to have a nice bubble bath and maybe cook a super healthy dinner so I can treat myself to a creme egg.
It’s a bad day, not a bad life. Hopefully tomorrow will be better 🙂