Journey on a train

I travelled up to Wolverhampton this weekend to catch up with a friend. Which was lovely.

I got the train there & back as I thought it be nice to chill & not worry about getting there.

I had forgotten how bad the trains can be sometimes. Both ways I’ve been delayed. One by a fire which fair enough, you can’t do anything about! But it was delayed by 45 mins whilst being on the train & standing as there weren’t any seats.

I like to think I’m fairly fit but even I was in a bit of feet pain from standing. Why do they allow so many people on a train? It’s horrible being squished.

I also think it’s important to keep us updated so you can let your family/friends know. Especially if they’re waiting for you or picking you up from the other side.

I did make a few friends from Macclesfield which was nice. I like chatting to strangers on the train & learning their story.

Coming back home, it’s been delayed due to a speeding restriction which has delayed so far by the 10 mins which I can deal with.

What I can’t deal with is again the lack of seats & how horrifically busy the train is. I’m currently sat in the bike shed of the train on the floor listening to a baby screaming so apologies for the rant!


Morning moaning moans

Well it’s been awhile since I’ve blogged.

Life has been difficult the last few months with boy trouble, quitting my job, finding a new one & being diagnosed with anxiety.

But, we’re at the end of the tunnel I hope, new job is going well so far. Things are looking up with the boy & through therapy, I’m dealing with the voices in my head.

I’m feeling pretty positive. It made me realise how you never know what’s going on with people. In their heads, hearts, at home or work. Always be kind.

What I’ve also realised is how much people complain…..

I had friends over at the weekend & all some of them did was just moan.

Moaning about the weather. Moaning about their work. Moaning about being on a diet. Moaning about being tired. Moaning about their partner. Moaning about being single. Etc etc.

Sometimes you need a good moan, I’m s big believer in that. But there’s a time & a place like over a bottle of wine with your bestie.

Not at a house party where people want to have fun & be happy.

Maybe I should of been brave enough to ask them to leave but no one needs the drama.

I just hope I’m not a hypocrite. Going to work on being less moany. No more morning moaning moans.

Brave Girl

This post is going to sound silly. What’s the definition of brave? Dealing with a difficult situation. I know some people have it worse off than me and I’m not taking anything away from anyone.

I have a real issue with driving. It brings up my anxiety and makes me want to panic. I’ve spent the last few years getting better but every so often, in a difficult situation it will occur again.

Today was that day. We’ve recently had to change where we park at work now as where we work has literally no spaces anywhere unless we want to pay. Who wants to pay for parking? No-one. Especially when you don’t earn that much money, you don’t want to waste it on things like that.

I found a new place ok. But it was going over two mini roundabouts put together which stressed me a little bit as you have to look at every direction and decide whether people think they know who has right of way, etc. Then going down two shallow roads and eventually found a place.

I hope my car is ok. I hope she’s not been keyed or scratched. I hope no-one has parked too closely to me so I can’t move my car. This is what is going round and round my head at the moment.

Along with managing two jobs which my manager still doesn’t seem to appreciate or understand how hard I’m working. I’m enjoying my new responsibilities and I’m not moaning about working hard but it’s important to be noticed.

I’m just not in a very good mood today. I’m hoping something or someone will change that.

Unlikely for that to happen at work, the more I think about it… the more people I’ve learnt to dislike. There’s still this girl situation who keeps bringing up that I’m having a secret affair with someone in her team. SERIOUSLY. Just stop.

Here’s hoping to something nice happening. Sorry for the grumps. Capture4