My sinuses have been playing up alot the last few weeks so have been in bed poorly.
It has made me feel very useless
I tried helping out today by putting up Christmas decorations, emptying the bins & putting some washing on
I got told by my darling mother that I had put the decorations wrong and they look silly.
I got told that I should of separated stuff to recycle and I hadn’t put all the washing on
I’m not being a brat but where’s the thank you for attempting? I’m sorry I’m not as bloody perfect as my mother.
I love her to bits but she does my nut in sometimes. She doesn’t help with my confidence or anxiety
The above photo was me this morning.
Mum & I haven’t been getting on very well the last few weeks.
She calls me high maintenance and I think she’s a negative influence.
You should choose your fights carefully but its difficult.
She doesn’t understand my anxieties and I’m expected to just get on with life as I’m the stable child apparently.
My little brother currently has a sore back from whiplash so he can’t move around much but can go clubbing? Hmm.
He’s also at a shitty job which he chose. He has a psycho girlfriend which he chose. Who has a baby with another man whilst dating him which he’s now choosing to bring up.
See a pattern? He chose these things and he says he’s happy for it which is great but he’s still the special one.
The older I get, the more I get fed up of this and feel myself distancing away from my family.
I really can’t wait to have my own place.
On a lighter note, I’m very lucky to have such a lovely, supportive boyfriend and some great friends who keep me in check.