All posts tagged change

Journey on a train

Published March 25, 2018 by katee124

I travelled up to Wolverhampton this weekend to catch up with a friend. Which was lovely.

I got the train there & back as I thought it be nice to chill & not worry about getting there.

I had forgotten how bad the trains can be sometimes. Both ways I’ve been delayed. One by a fire which fair enough, you can’t do anything about! But it was delayed by 45 mins whilst being on the train & standing as there weren’t any seats.

I like to think I’m fairly fit but even I was in a bit of feet pain from standing. Why do they allow so many people on a train? It’s horrible being squished.

I also think it’s important to keep us updated so you can let your family/friends know. Especially if they’re waiting for you or picking you up from the other side.

I did make a few friends from Macclesfield which was nice. I like chatting to strangers on the train & learning their story.

Coming back home, it’s been delayed due to a speeding restriction which has delayed so far by the 10 mins which I can deal with.

What I can’t deal with is again the lack of seats & how horrifically busy the train is. I’m currently sat in the bike shed of the train on the floor listening to a baby screaming so apologies for the rant!


Own worst enemy

Published September 10, 2017 by katee124

Sometimes the bravest thing to do is be yourself. 

I find this hard. Even though I have a great, support network – I just feel I’m not as good as others. 

Low self esteem for ya, plus I’m naturally a negative thinker. I’m very good at focusing on the bad. 

I need to focus on the good. Because life is good, I need to relax my mind and breathe. Breathe & just chill. Why is it so hard? 

Any tips on relaxing, I’m listening. 

Bad day

Published February 1, 2017 by katee124

Today has been a pretty bad day for me.

Started off this morning fine, thinking “halfway through the week, woohoo”

Got to work and it just wasn’t playing ball.

This nasty girl I sit near was on form, she was arguing with me every time I opened my mouth. I could of said the world was shaped like a ball and she would of argued it was a square. 

She’s so aggressive & intimidating, it makes me feel uncomfortable. It makes me angry that certain people just let her get away with it. 

Then…. My manager took me aside and said she was disappointed in me and thinks I need to mature which she has said before but unfortunately it doesn’t happen overnight.

Kick a girl whilst she’s down eh? 

I guess I was just feeling emotional today. My lenses were playing up but more importantly, I feel isolated at work. I feel like I can’t talk or trust anyone without it backfiring. 

Hey ho. just a bad day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 

I came home, watched me before you and had a good cry which always helps ๐Ÿ™‚ 


Published November 4, 2016 by katee124

I recently had an annual review at work and was told I need to work on my maturity for work and personal  

What does that mean?

Well, for personal to me it means growing up and pushing myself out of my comfort zone as much as I hate it because deep down, its good for you and you learn from it and become better. 

Becoming less shy and timid and just going for it and to stop apologising for being me because I’m great and the world should know about it.

Work maturity, to me means behaving professionally and making the best of situations. Analysing them and removing myself if bad and managing others. 

I need to change how I think and become more business oriented. Challenge accepted. 

Now lets go out and own this weekend ๐Ÿ™‚  


Published October 24, 2016 by katee124

Humans are strange creatures. 

Theres a girl at work who was originally one of my favourites. She’s so lovely and kind to everyone. 

But more recently, I’ve noticed a change in her behaviour. 

Since she’s got this new boyfriend. She pays for everything as he has no job which is fine but he bought a new car after he lost his job. 

Who buys a new car when they’ve lost their job? Especially when their current car is find? Hmmm. She’s now paying for that car. 

She now has no money. And regularly organises nights out but drops out on the day due to money or just wanting to see her boyfriend. 

She did this last Friday when we were going to a friend of ours for dinner. I’m not gonna lie, I had a word. You can’t change plans on the day at someone’s house. It’s just rude. 

Now she’s avoiding me. I wasn’t horrible, I just said she needs to think of other people when cancelling plans. 

She’s in the wrong and hiding. I’m not angry or annoyed. She’s making it worse than it is as she’s probably embarrassed. Hope this sorts itself out soon. 


Published March 3, 2016 by katee124


I love this photo. It’s very cute but real. Big scary lions were once cute little kittens.

It’s the same with human beginnings too. We were once babies, children, teenagers before we got to adulthood. Not saying we are scary (some definitely are!)

I’ve recently been given more responsibility at work, when I say responsibility I mean I’ve been given another department to look after which is great because it means they must like me enough and trust me enough to do this.

Taking on new bits on top of current stuff slowly and doing more. I really do feel like I’m bettering myself if that’s a thing. For awhile I’ve been thinking “oh I’m not valued enough here” or “I work hardย and no-one notices” or “I’m being taken for a mug here”

Which is a normal thing to feel after you’ve been in the same job for a few years and I was starting to look elsewhere when this opportunity lands on my lap.

I’ll be even busier than usual and hopefully will be valued a bit more. I may be young but I’m not an idiot. There are definitely a few people at my work who because they’re older, think they know better than me. Ageist grannies.

I’m not saying I know everything because I definitely don’t and I still have lots to learn but some of the stuff I do actually know. My manager told me in my last review that I should stand up for myself if I think I’m right but it’s sods law the one time you do it and you’re actually wrong… that worries me.

But yeah, work is getting a bit better at the moment. I’m not hanging around with some of the people who use to bring me down. I’m feeling a lot happier but also tired. You never really notice how tiring learning and concentrating can actually be!

Onwards and upwards to an improved me with new skills ๐Ÿ™‚


Published February 22, 2016 by katee124


This is very true. I’m thinking about this quote as I move desks at work today.

I have been at my current work now for 2 years, 2 months and 2 weeks which is the longest I’ve ever been.

I like my current desk a lot. I can see the whole room. I’m in the corner at the back so no-one can see my screen and I’m near a window so I can daydream and watch the world go by when I need a minute. I’m also near a tree.

My new desk is still in a corner but I’m facing a wall instead of seeing people enter the room. I’m not near a window or a tree. Everyone can see my screen as well which is not good when you’re on a 5 minute break or trying to write on your secret blog.

But I like butterflies and if we didn’t change, we wouldn’t be like butterflies. That’s what I’m telling myself anyway to get through this change.

A lot of change is going on at the moment. Desks, job role is expanding, friendships are ending and starting. Just remember that if we don’t change, we can’t become butterflies ๐Ÿ™‚