I travelled up to Wolverhampton this weekend to catch up with a friend. Which was lovely.
I got the train there & back as I thought it be nice to chill & not worry about getting there.
I had forgotten how bad the trains can be sometimes. Both ways I’ve been delayed. One by a fire which fair enough, you can’t do anything about! But it was delayed by 45 mins whilst being on the train & standing as there weren’t any seats.
I like to think I’m fairly fit but even I was in a bit of feet pain from standing. Why do they allow so many people on a train? It’s horrible being squished.
I also think it’s important to keep us updated so you can let your family/friends know. Especially if they’re waiting for you or picking you up from the other side.
I did make a few friends from Macclesfield which was nice. I like chatting to strangers on the train & learning their story.
Coming back home, it’s been delayed due to a speeding restriction which has delayed so far by the 10 mins which I can deal with.
What I can’t deal with is again the lack of seats & how horrifically busy the train is. I’m currently sat in the bike shed of the train on the floor listening to a baby screaming so apologies for the rant!
Well it’s been awhile since I’ve blogged.
Life has been difficult the last few months with boy trouble, quitting my job, finding a new one & being diagnosed with anxiety.
But, we’re at the end of the tunnel I hope, new job is going well so far. Things are looking up with the boy & through therapy, I’m dealing with the voices in my head.
I’m feeling pretty positive. It made me realise how you never know what’s going on with people. In their heads, hearts, at home or work. Always be kind.
What I’ve also realised is how much people complain…..
I had friends over at the weekend & all some of them did was just moan.
Moaning about the weather. Moaning about their work. Moaning about being on a diet. Moaning about being tired. Moaning about their partner. Moaning about being single. Etc etc.
Sometimes you need a good moan, I’m s big believer in that. But there’s a time & a place like over a bottle of wine with your bestie.
Not at a house party where people want to have fun & be happy.
Maybe I should of been brave enough to ask them to leave but no one needs the drama.
I just hope I’m not a hypocrite. Going to work on being less moany. No more morning moaning moans.
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Feeling mentally exhausted at the moment.
Work is so full on. Everyone is stressy & grumpy. Its a really negative environment to be in at the moment. They’re all nuts as well with an agenda.
Long time no see.
Its important to be able to trust yourself as at the end of the day, you are all you have.
Just today alone I’ve had a few experiences where I’ve been made to feel bad about just acting as myself or feeling a certain way or even voting for a certain party in a certain election.
My message here is, you do you. No matter what. It’s alot easier to be you than pretend other wise.
Everyone is different, sure but we’re all our own people with our own thoughts, feelings and decisions.
The amount of abuse I’ve seen lately about people voting for parties in this election is horrendous.
The important thing is to vote. Vote for who you believe in or their policies. Everyone is in a different situation hence the different parties.
Please stop the hate. Encourage to vote. Encourage to educate unbiased information. The BBC website is perfect for this.
There’s too much hate these days, let in the light.
Today has been a pretty bad day for me.
Started off this morning fine, thinking “halfway through the week, woohoo”
Got to work and it just wasn’t playing ball.
This nasty girl I sit near was on form, she was arguing with me every time I opened my mouth. I could of said the world was shaped like a ball and she would of argued it was a square.
She’s so aggressive & intimidating, it makes me feel uncomfortable. It makes me angry that certain people just let her get away with it.
Then…. My manager took me aside and said she was disappointed in me and thinks I need to mature which she has said before but unfortunately it doesn’t happen overnight.
Kick a girl whilst she’s down eh?
I guess I was just feeling emotional today. My lenses were playing up but more importantly, I feel isolated at work. I feel like I can’t talk or trust anyone without it backfiring.
Hey ho. just a bad day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
I came home, watched me before you and had a good cry which always helps 🙂
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My sinuses have been playing up alot the last few weeks so have been in bed poorly.
It has made me feel very useless
I tried helping out today by putting up Christmas decorations, emptying the bins & putting some washing on
I got told by my darling mother that I had put the decorations wrong and they look silly.
I got told that I should of separated stuff to recycle and I hadn’t put all the washing on
I’m not being a brat but where’s the thank you for attempting? I’m sorry I’m not as bloody perfect as my mother.
I love her to bits but she does my nut in sometimes. She doesn’t help with my confidence or anxiety
The above photo was me this morning.
Mum & I haven’t been getting on very well the last few weeks.
She calls me high maintenance and I think she’s a negative influence.
You should choose your fights carefully but its difficult.
She doesn’t understand my anxieties and I’m expected to just get on with life as I’m the stable child apparently.
My little brother currently has a sore back from whiplash so he can’t move around much but can go clubbing? Hmm.
He’s also at a shitty job which he chose. He has a psycho girlfriend which he chose. Who has a baby with another man whilst dating him which he’s now choosing to bring up.
See a pattern? He chose these things and he says he’s happy for it which is great but he’s still the special one.
The older I get, the more I get fed up of this and feel myself distancing away from my family.
I really can’t wait to have my own place.
On a lighter note, I’m very lucky to have such a lovely, supportive boyfriend and some great friends who keep me in check.