All posts tagged appreciation

What & where?

Published October 17, 2017 by katee124

I don’t know what I’m doing or where I’m at these days. 

I change my mind very quickly & never know which direction or choice to make. It’s scary, life is scary. You can make one decision & it can affect the rest of your life. 

This adulting life is bloody terrifying but I like to think deep down that we’re thinking & feeling the same. Some obviously deal with it or hide it better than others whereas some just completely lose it & turn into bad eggs. 

I’m not really sure what I’m trying to say. I guess, you’re not alone. Keep going, keep trying. It will be ok in the end, and if it’s not ok, then its not the end. 


Trust yourself

Published May 24, 2017 by katee124

Long time no see. 

Its important to be able to trust yourself as at the end of the day, you are all you have. 

Just today alone I’ve had a few experiences where I’ve been made to feel bad about just acting as myself or feeling a certain way or even voting for a certain party in a certain election. 

My message here is, you do you. No matter what. It’s alot easier to be you than pretend other wise. 

Everyone is different, sure but we’re all our own people with our own thoughts, feelings and decisions. 

The amount of abuse I’ve seen lately about people voting for parties in this election is horrendous. 

The important thing is to vote. Vote for who you believe in or their policies. Everyone is in a different situation hence the different parties. 

Please stop the hate. Encourage to vote. Encourage to educate unbiased information. The BBC website is perfect for this. 

There’s too much hate these days, let in the light. 

Bad day

Published February 1, 2017 by katee124

Today has been a pretty bad day for me.

Started off this morning fine, thinking “halfway through the week, woohoo”

Got to work and it just wasn’t playing ball.

This nasty girl I sit near was on form, she was arguing with me every time I opened my mouth. I could of said the world was shaped like a ball and she would of argued it was a square. 

She’s so aggressive & intimidating, it makes me feel uncomfortable. It makes me angry that certain people just let her get away with it. 

Then…. My manager took me aside and said she was disappointed in me and thinks I need to mature which she has said before but unfortunately it doesn’t happen overnight.

Kick a girl whilst she’s down eh? 

I guess I was just feeling emotional today. My lenses were playing up but more importantly, I feel isolated at work. I feel like I can’t talk or trust anyone without it backfiring. 

Hey ho. just a bad day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 

I came home, watched me before you and had a good cry which always helps 🙂 


Published January 20, 2017 by katee124

I’ve been good lately. Too good. Until yesterday. 

Had a bit of a moment in the bath. Suddenly released what I’ve become so good at blocking in my mind. 

I felt extremely stressed, overwhelmed and exhausted. 

It’s not easy to get out of so here’s a list I wrote of things to be grateful about. 

– flowers, they’re so pretty and yes they die but then you can more prettiness

– cats, so fluffy and purry and cute 

– love, its lovely when someone loves you and you love then. Relationships, friendships, family

– music 

– makeup, nothing a bit of lipstick can’t do to make you own the day 

– rivers, with all their animals and plants and boats 

– food, creme eggs chicken nuggets Turkey dinosaurs sausages smoky bacon crisps 

– smiles 🙂 

– clouds 

That will do for now. 

Off day

Published August 24, 2016 by katee124

Tuesday was fun. I was a very grumpy lady all day and I have no idea why. 

I keep blaming work and how I hate my job and the people I’m surrounded by all day.

But really, I think it’s me.

I just don’t feel happy in my head and its starting to become a problem. I use to think I was a happy person but not at all recently. 

Is something wrong? Who knows.

I’m just trying my best to get through the day and that’s all anyone can do. Their best. 

I cheered myself up by seeing an old friend and going to the cinema. We saw a film called the shallows which has the gorgeous Blake Lively in.

Massive girl crush although my highlight of the film was Steven the seagull. What a babe. 

Its important to have things to look forward to. 

Long weekend

Published August 22, 2016 by katee124

I went away this weekend with some friends. 

The idea of it terrified me. The thought of being on show all weekend and having nowhere to hide. 

I had no boyfriend to cuddle up to either as he’s away for a few weeks. 

He told me two things. Be brave and be positive. So that’s what I did. 

Unlike some, one of the humans I got a lift with and was sharing a tent with was a miserable moo all weekend. So I tried to keep away . 

It’s amazing what a few drinks can do to make you feel good. 

It was a nice enough weekend. Was good for me to be social without hiding behind my boyfriend. My friends are my friends.

I had nothing to worry about really. My life story eh? 

One regret – getting a bit too drunk one night. I hit my peak and was loving life. 

Went over peak and ended up in tears. I was in tears cos I missed my boy. I must like him or something. 

I learnt that its ok to be a bit scared sometimes. As long as you’re brave and get through it positively.

I also learnt that even the happiest of people need a few off days. 


Published March 1, 2016 by katee124


I’m 23. I’m 23 years old. I’m getting on a bit…

I had such a good birthday. It started on the Friday (actual birthday was on Saturday). I had a pub lunch with some colleagues which was great. The pub we go to is less than 2 mins away walking wise and they do great chicken goujons. I like anything such as chicken goujons, chicken nuggets, chicken dippers, you name it. I LOVE them.

There was a bit of peer pressure to finish my vodka & coke but as the last one was my second, I did not. I still had an afternoon of work to do and didn’t want to get into trouble. Just not worth it. I took the disapproval from my peers and moved on.

That evening I went home, had a shower to freshen up and put some heels on to get ready for a night out. My boyfriend turned up with some lovely white roses. He’s good to me. He looked good to. My friend then picked us up and took us back into the same town that I work in.

We went to a place called the Slug & Lettuce. I go there every year for my birthday, it’s become a little tradition. 2 4 1 cocktails & desserts. You can’t go wrong really.

As it was my birthday, we got a free bottle of prosecco which was great! Few bubbles to start off the night! This ended up with another bottle and a few cocktails. There was food though! I had a main meal called Smothered Chicken which is basically chicken,  bacon, bbq sauce with chips & peas. It’s so so good and I get it every time.

There was also pudding. I had chocolate puddle which is warm chocolate cake with ice cream. Yum yum yum.

Once we had paid the bill, a few people from work decided to turn up which was ok. I wasn’t overly keen as I don’t usually mix work friends with outside friends but it wasn’t terrible. It was just slightly awkward. I didn’t let this ruin the night though.

Next day was my birthday and at first, woke up at 8:30am which is very unlike me without a hangover which was great! Woke my boyfriend up so I could open my presents. I’m a big kid really.

Had bacon & cheese baguettes for breakfast, also very yum. Then to the most important bit, PRESENTS! 

I had so many! From candles to nail varnishes to body butters to earrings to charms for my pandora bracelet to peter pan jumpers to gym accessories. You get the picture. I was spoilt rotten!

After present opening, we headed into London. This is when my hangover started to appear. Not so good… went straight to a train station coffee shop to grab a caramel latte and a water for emergencies.

As soon as we got into London, we did a bit of shopping. Bought some cool Harry Potter shirts, massive fangirl but it was in Primark and it would be rude not to. Also got some PJ shorts which I actually need.

We then went to Burger King and ordered 2 XXL double bacon cheese burgers and oh my god, it was so good. I love Burger King… yum.

After that, feeling a bit full we walked to the CREME EGG CAFE

We had a 40 minute wait queuing which was fun. I was hoping it would make me feel less full so I could enjoy it a bit more. We got interviewed by a French radio though which was quite cool. Never thought I’d get to talk about creme eggs so much in 10 mins. Once we were inside you had a choice of takeaway, restaurant or ball pit. We didn’t have much time left as we had to be home for a family takeaway by a certain time so we went for the takeaway.

We ordered two creme egg toasties which is literally melted creme eggs in toasted bread. IT WAS AMAZING. So worth the 40 minute wait even if I did feel a bit sick from the BK still…

After getting the train home, we were ordered by my mum to go to our local Chinese takeaway to pick up our order. That’s right. Burger King, Creme Egg toastie and now a Chinese…. by the end of this, I felt like the size of a house. There was also Millie’s Cookie Cake…..

Overall, I had a great birthday weekend. My family, friends and boyfriend didn’t let me down and spoilt me rotten. Feeling lots of love ❤