Tuesday was fun. I was a very grumpy lady all day and I have no idea why.
I keep blaming work and how I hate my job and the people I’m surrounded by all day.
But really, I think it’s me.
I just don’t feel happy in my head and its starting to become a problem. I use to think I was a happy person but not at all recently.
Is something wrong? Who knows.
I’m just trying my best to get through the day and that’s all anyone can do. Their best.
I cheered myself up by seeing an old friend and going to the cinema. We saw a film called the shallows which has the gorgeous Blake Lively in.
Massive girl crush although my highlight of the film was Steven the seagull. What a babe.
Its important to have things to look forward to.
I went away this weekend with some friends.
The idea of it terrified me. The thought of being on show all weekend and having nowhere to hide.
I had no boyfriend to cuddle up to either as he’s away for a few weeks.
He told me two things. Be brave and be positive. So that’s what I did.
Unlike some, one of the humans I got a lift with and was sharing a tent with was a miserable moo all weekend. So I tried to keep away .
It’s amazing what a few drinks can do to make you feel good.
It was a nice enough weekend. Was good for me to be social without hiding behind my boyfriend. My friends are my friends.
I had nothing to worry about really. My life story eh?
One regret – getting a bit too drunk one night. I hit my peak and was loving life.
Went over peak and ended up in tears. I was in tears cos I missed my boy. I must like him or something.
I learnt that its ok to be a bit scared sometimes. As long as you’re brave and get through it positively.
I also learnt that even the happiest of people need a few off days.
Everyone has their down days. But it’s true, you do need to move on.
I found out today that my brother who’s learning to drive, had a crash in mum’s car.
Straight away, it brought back all these horrible memories and my anxiety about driving.
Obviously this isn’t about me. Its about my brother and he’s ok. He’s a lot stronger than me mentally.
It just made me think. Who do you talk to your feelings about?
I come from quite a hard, negative family whereas if you feel sad, you just get on with it.
Which isn’t a bad thing. It makes you strong but sometimes you need a moment.
Being sad doesn’t make you weak. It makes you human.
Not everyone understands mental health. Not everyone can help but they mean well. They don’t want you sad. They want you to be fun and excitable.
Definitely not. Unless you’re close. Day to day people just don’t care. Which sucks but that’s how it is.
Once you leave work, you won’t hear from them again.
Yeah,maybe. Supportive and kind. Available for cuddles and love. Similar to friends, wants you to be happy.
I guess this post was just to say be sad but try not to let it beat you.
I’ll never be able to do the last one but I can try on the others.
Number 1 is going very well, especially at work. I never realised I was surrounded by such petty people.
Its not even half 9 yet this morning and already one person is moaning about being told to water the plants as she overfed them.
“I never asked to do it, I was volunteered”. Dude, take some responsibility. No one cares if you want to do it or not. You’ve said you would so deal with it.
Don’t guilt trip me into thinking I should do it.
This is the same person who winds me up on a day to day basis. She’s a waste of time. She wants to be number one in all the guy’s eyes and doesn’t want us employing more women.
Urgh. I really dislike her. Which is a shame as I liked her when she first started.
Shame how opinions can change.