This post is going to sound silly. What’s the definition of brave? Dealing with a difficult situation. I know some people have it worse off than me and I’m not taking anything away from anyone.
I have a real issue with driving. It brings up my anxiety and makes me want to panic. I’ve spent the last few years getting better but every so often, in a difficult situation it will occur again.
Today was that day. We’ve recently had to change where we park at work now as where we work has literally no spaces anywhere unless we want to pay. Who wants to pay for parking? No-one. Especially when you don’t earn that much money, you don’t want to waste it on things like that.
I found a new place ok. But it was going over two mini roundabouts put together which stressed me a little bit as you have to look at every direction and decide whether people think they know who has right of way, etc. Then going down two shallow roads and eventually found a place.
I hope my car is ok. I hope she’s not been keyed or scratched. I hope no-one has parked too closely to me so I can’t move my car. This is what is going round and round my head at the moment.
Along with managing two jobs which my manager still doesn’t seem to appreciate or understand how hard I’m working. I’m enjoying my new responsibilities and I’m not moaning about working hard but it’s important to be noticed.
I’m just not in a very good mood today. I’m hoping something or someone will change that.
Unlikely for that to happen at work, the more I think about it… the more people I’ve learnt to dislike. There’s still this girl situation who keeps bringing up that I’m having a secret affair with someone in her team. SERIOUSLY. Just stop.
Here’s hoping to something nice happening. Sorry for the grumps.
Friday the 13th. Unlucky for some….
Not me. Well not this time anyway!
Today I was not at work. I took a day off. Last day off was Christmas and it has been brilliant.
I woke up this morning at half 8 as I didn’t want to waste the day.
Had some cuddles with my 9 month old step niece as she, her mum, my brother, mum & dad are off on a weekend away together. I passed on this due to wanting some time to myself – good decision
Then I went to my boyfriend’s house to head to the gym together which was ok. I have 3 goals at the mo, main one being to make my back stronger and my god, it’s so painful to do.
The shower afterwards made it worth it. Nothing better than a hot shower after smelling all sweaty and dirty.
My boyfriend took me for a picnic near the river which was so lovely. There were baby goslings 😍😍
The sun was shining, the park was beautiful and we were just chatting away.
Overall a brilliant day, I really needed some time to just relax and not think about anything. Would highly recommend it every so often.
I thought I was just over-thinking things, maybe I am… but there’s definitely something that doesn’t feel right.
I said recently that a girl at work who’s still fairly new seemed really friendly and nice. We get on quite well and went to lunch together but recently, she’s completely gone off me as if I’ve done something bad.
Now I know I have. Because it’s just getting worse. She’s very quiet throughout the day which is unlike her as she’s a loud, chatty person. She doesn’t include me in the tea&coffee round anymore which I think is quite petty.
I haven’t done anything wrong though. My instinct just tells me that she’s jealous. I’ve been here awhile and have my feet under the desk. I get on well with the majority of people and her team leader likes me more than her.
Reminds me of my school years when other girls became bitter due to certain girls getting more attention or thinking they’re better. I don’t think I’m better than anyone but I’m certainly not going to stop being myself. I’m a friendly, confident person. I like chatting to people.
I haven’t said anything to anyone at work as I don’t want to cause any unnecessary drama but it’s just quite pathetic. I thought she was going to be a good friend as we had a lot in common. Clearly not.
Any ideas on how I can make this better?